Passion

Last night I watched Before Sunrise and its sequel Before Sunset. Those movies are amazing. If ever you are wondering if the person that you are with is the right person for you, watch those movies. They are inspiring, and really fuel your desire to find the one person who you are that passionate for.

Sometimes I regret ending relationships. I think to myself, "Oh, he was so nice, such a good guy, if I was still dating him think of the things I could have..." And then I almost convince myself that I should have just stayed and made it work. Or, even worse, that there is something wrong with me for not feeling a spark, like I have been actively pushing away happiness or something.

But then I realize that the world is FULL of people who settle. Settle for some one who is so nice, such a good guy, would give them everything that they wanted, even though there is no extreme passion. The weird thing is that I think that some people are completely happy to have done that. Some people don't know any better, don't dream of anything more. Sometimes I think that life would be so much more simple if I was one of those people.

But then I get inspired by something, whether it's a movie, or a song, or a second where I observe a beautiful moment between two people, and I realize that I am doing the right thing by holding out. I deserve someone who thinks the sun sets around me, who loves my quirks and doesn't make me feel guilty for them, and who I can talk to all night.

Here are two lines from the movies that really spoke to me:

"It's better to be alone than feel lonely when you're with someone."

"Why do we get so obsessed with people that we don't even like that much?"

PS- Today I am wearing fun shoes. (See above.)